Voices Within

Sep 30, 08:05 PM

Last month I made a quick reference on Facebook to our ancestors. I had been experiencing deep ancestral grief over a number of days for which I was practicing mindfulness and self compassion. In an earlier time I would have been flooded with somatic sensation and perhaps lost myself in grief for weeks or even months. I’ve learned to stay with these feelings and be close but not let them over take me. I find this somatic processing one of the best tools of our time, as so many of us are so sensitive and there is much karma being released in the collective field. I’m sure many of you are like me, whose spirit has taken on the task of collective shadow processing. Wether its our personal or collective shadow we are processing, mindfulness and self compassion are key to successful understanding.

Back to the ancestors. I learned just in time, that from the full to the new moon every September is in the Vedic tradition the time of honouring the ancestors. They will show up with gifts or unprocessed grief for us to assimilate and heal at this time of year. Knowing what to do with this grief allowed me to sit with it, feel it fully, and transmute it through my body, breath, and heart. I spent several evenings with them around the fire, inviting their words and tears and wisdom, and offering my presence and breath. I gained deeper insight into their lives and how they could support me live mine. It was a merging of our worlds, and we were able to sit in a place of unity for a time.

During this time a client was experiencing intense ancestral visitations as well, and she has given me permission to share a part of her story. During a healing session we were able to localize and extract a part of her ancestral trauma into a holding field outside her body. In a later session we organized a small ceremony to visit this localized pain and ask it what it needed to heal. In that ceremony we experienced a number of things, some the same and some different. What I experienced from this localized pain, was a vast number of ancestors, hundreds of them dating back maybe thousands of years. They were shadowed and grieving because they had lost their connection to Source/God/dess/Spirit. The thing is, each of them was surrounded in a field of source light, they just didn’t know it. They had been told over and over, and eventually believed that they had been cast out, in exile from the love of Spirit. They had not lost their connection, they had not been cast out, they only thought they had. I spoke to them and pointed out what I saw, which was clearly the field of source love around every single one of them no matter what they had done in their lives. At that moment a shift in consciousness and healing took place. We then sat in that presence until we ended the session. I Haven’t yet spoken with this person about any changes this made in her own life, but I would suspect that changes will unfold for the better.

And this is the work that my own ancestors were interested in as well. Sharing this vision that we were never cast out. We, and our ancestors, never were abandoned by God/dess/Source/Self/Love, no matter what we did. We were just told that over and over until a lot of us believed it. And with that belief came crushing hopelessness. We are living in dark times indeed, but we also all see lights of hope everywhere. And we can connect with these lights and let them mirror our own true divine nature, our own light. And in doing that, the light gets stronger. The light of love, presence, beauty, forgiveness, kindness, generosity, healing-they are all there, they never left us. This is our divinity. And as the divine forces grow inside us, giving us strength, we are able to confront and transmute our own darkness more and more, which feeds the collective good. It’s a cycle of inner work and healing and it’s what is required of us at this time. Remember, you are never alone in this, we are in it together.


The Weather Report

Apr 7, 10:26 AM

For the past 8 years, I have been studying the spiritual aspects of weather, including training with a shamanic practicum in the US. The training has come to it’s completion, but my personal study of spiritual weather continues. There are all kinds of shamanic acrobatics that one can do in order to dissect and study realities, but in the end I believe the work is very simple. If everyday we ask ourselves this question, we will learn what we need to know:

“What can I do today to fully participate in the Mystery?” Or perhaps, “How can I serve the Mystery today?”

I have been hearing a lot of complaints this spring about the weather. Nothing new. As if, the weather cares anything about our petty human agendas like planning an outing or going to work. I have even heard of people using their “manifesting” techniques to try and change the weather to fit their personal needs. We must stop this, and think about what we are actually doing. And then we can begin to look a bit deeper.

Here are some suggestions:

Weather is the prana, or life force of Gaia, Mother Earth. Without weather in all of it’s expressions, there would be no life. As Gaia’s systems get more polluted and depleted, she is working harder than ever to breathe fresh prana into every corner of her body. In order to clear all that is stuck, her weather is getting more extreme. She is working very, very hard to stay healthy. How can we help her? We can help her first by stepping back and accepting her incredible intelligence and skill in self healing and self regulating with weather. We are one species on the planet. It’s not about us.

At the beginning of my weather training, I met a compassionate weather deity. She told me: “If all humans on earth learned to breathe properly, the planet’s weather would be balanced and harmonious.” Think about that one. This one instruction changed the entire course of my study for the better. My weather practice became my breath practice.

What humans appreciate and turn their attention to thrives; what they direct anger or disgust towards suffers; and what they neglect, withers and dies. What power we have! From that teaching, we can understand how important it is to spend a moment every day appreciating our lives, no matter what our circumstances may be. Extending this practice further, take a moment to appreciate Mother Earth and her incredibly intelligent system of prana – the weather. A moment of weather appreciation each day, no matter what is outside, will more than pay you back in love.

Weather has feelings. In spite how we treat her, she wants to connect with us and be appreciated for her hard work. We can learn so much about our lives by sitting with weather and forming bonds of friendship. Maybe extreme weather isn’t for you; try a dancing breeze, a gentle rain, or a bit of lightning in the sky at first. Make friends with a common weather pattern, and you may be surprised when and how she shows up. Then try extending your friendship to weather you normally wouldn’t enjoy, such as driving wind, or snow in April. She is not your enemy. Learn to share space with someone who doesn’t support your personal values and agendas. There is a bigger picture at work.

These are a few of the key points I’ve distilled from my training. If you can incorporate these practices into your life, you will discover abundant beauty within your being. I can promise that. Breathe, accept what is without trying to change things, then fully appreciate what comes naturally. This is where true intimacy can develop. Any spiritual practice of earth communion embraces all weather.


Request from the Natural World

Dec 8, 02:11 PM

The earth is quiet and breathtaking as we approach the Winter Solstice. There is a connectedness, a communion going on that whispers of hope and joy. The web of life feels unified as it breathes it’s winter sleep. I am part of this as I stand on our little hill top with my druid staff and morning tea. Drinking in the sunrise and bird calls, I feel the hope and the life force around me. Life does want to live to it’s fullest. Each little bit of life from the mint still growing in my garden, to the finches at my feeder, to the pink dewey clouds in the sky. All of Nature wants to live it’s life to the max. And it wants to speak. So it’s time to listen. I’m going to share what I heard this morning.

This desire to live life to the absolute fullest. Humans are the ONLY species that seem to suppress this desire: the instinct to thrive. (And when I say thrive, I mean thrive within the web of life, not outdoing each other with biger houses and the latest vacation resort) If you were an Extraterrestrial on a school field trip flying by earth to observe, you’d wonder why these humans had a death wish! Why do we? Certainly Nature asks us this everyday. This is a question that shamans, spiritual healers, earth based peoples, and many others have been asking and addressing for quite some time. We are in the most massive extinction since the dinosaurs. We are loosing our forests (our natural earth balancing habitat), clean water sources, animals, and glaciers, faster than any of us can imagine. We are living mostly with global governments that support this agenda, and there are still way too many people that are shut down and unwilling to look at their own behavior and life choices that contribute to this mindless destruction. But I do know with 100% certainty that we have the power, as a human collective, to turn this all around through our own consciousness.

Healing from this destructive path will take everything we have, and bring us to the edge of what we thought was possible within ourselves. We are so much infinitely more powerful than we think we are. We can do it. The earth has faith in us. For me, a pivotal moment was in my early 30’s when I was old enough to have the self awareness to realize there was a part of me that didn’t care. Part of me really just didn’t care if humans went on as a species or not, and that our natural ecosystems were being destroyed. That realization sent me on a path of deep psychological/spiritual healing, which started with the releasing of the toxic sludge from millennia of conditioning. What began all this violence towards life? There are many opinions and theories out there from Aliens to viruses, and there are many healers addressing this. If you are looking for answers and antidotes, go to the natural world, and go soon. The rocks and trees and turtles know. They remember, because they were there. They will tell you how it all started and what you need to do to heal. I did this, and still do.

Although over 10 years later, I am still healing from millennia of ancestral pain and conditioning, I can say with certainty that I care deeply for the continuation of our current species and ecosystems. And if anyone reading this, has that old paradigm mind state, know that this isn’t our natural state. The natural state is to love and celebrate life! To fully engage 100% in the joy of creation, to care for one another, and to thrive here on earth. Not on some imaginary ascended plane of existence, but right here, right now. And something that Edward Snowden (my hero) recently said on video, is that not all of us have the capacity to fight for justice in big external ways. So if you are one of those people, And if you are able, support those that are out there standing for life on earth with your money. Donate what you can to healthy balanced causes that are working against the destructive paradigm. They need us more than ever.

And from Mama Earth to all of us, “come out into me and rejoice. In this way, we will all heal”

And may peace, grace, and joy be with you over the holy days of Yule.


Full Moon Blessings

Nov 15, 03:25 PM

During this confusing challenging time of life on earth, don’t forget, we were made for these times. (See my post a few months back). We are supposed to be here with each other living life.
And tonight while we bathe in the light of the largest moon of our lifetimes, we can feel the power of our ancestors standing behind us, supporting our strength to create a world worth living in. So take some time tonight to envision what that world feels like.

The full moon in Taurus, ruled by Venus, is about beauty. What in your life is beautiful? What are the beautiful aspects of life that you value deeply? What in life is worth taking a stand for, to preserve? For me I just have to go outside and see the chickadees at my feeder, the sun sparkling on the ocean, and the fresh wind on my face. This kind of real life beauty can not be denied. Can not be replaced by simulated reality.

The full moon is also a time of releasing and forgiving. There is much shadow work to be done if we are to evolve. The collective shadow is right in our faces now. Our shadow work involves looking at all those places in us that we like to keep under wraps, with eyes of forgiveness and compassion. Being kind to those places of madness, chaos, and confusion. Forgiving ourselves and others.

Dancing stars are born from chaos…

And as always but perhaps more necessary than ever, it’s time to come back to the present moment. To come back home to centre after moments of anger or fear, and remember what’s true and eternal. We are human beings living on earth in 2016, and we are also dancing stars living in all times and places, becoming reborn each day.

Let this time of global political insanity not become normalized. Let us continue to look at it for what it is. Wrong. Too many bright lights have been dulled and distracted by our culture of over consumption, ignorance, and hatred. We must step back and reclaim what is ours. Our sacredness. With open hearts to the earth, each other, and ourselves, we must own our sacredness in every moment. That’s real.


The Town of Scorpions

Oct 19, 10:43 AM

The sun turns to Scorpio this week. What a perfect time to really implement that saying: “Let go and let God.” “Trust that the Universe has a better plan for you, than you do” , is another good one I read the other day. As we come up to the New Moon in Scorpio, and the Celtic New Year, it’s a very good time to release some old limiting beliefs and patterns. Scorpio is the month of death and rebirth; of transmutation.

The month of Scorpio can be a great month to slow down and deepen your body awareness too. Maybe you can take a deeper look at fears and challenge one. I had a dream a few weeks ago about a town in California that was overrun with Scorpions of all shapes, sizes, and colours. (they were shiny too) It was a terrifying place because they were everywhere, but no one seemed to mind. I walked into this cool metaphysical shop and was looking around. Noticing all the scorpions crawling around, I asked the shop keeper why no one was afraid? She said: Well, I guess we’re just used to them, and they help us see and feel where our personal boundaries are. Also, we’ve all become fearless in this town, we’re just not afraid of death anymore.

What a gift from the Scorpios in our lives. They help us “feel” our personal boundaries, and can lead us to places of fearlessness. Because what is fear anyway, but the fear of death or the pain of death. Death comes in so many disguises, but when you go down deep enough, it’s pretty much at the foundation of our fears. And what’s past our fears? They aren’t at the bottom. Perhaps all those little bites and stings we endure from our Scorpio friends, over time, give us more of an appreciation and participation in life. Darkness is part of the wholeness, the big picture. Part of the beauty.

All this reminds me of a quote from Annie Dillard I discovered in my early thirties which gave me the courage to go into my own darkness. It still fills me with appreciation.

“In the deeps are the violence and terror of which psychology has warned us. But if you ride these monsters deeper down, if you drop with them farther over the world’s rim, you find what our sciences cannot locate or name, the substrate, the ocean or matrix or ether which buoys the rest, which gives goodness its power for good, and evil its power for evil, the unified field: our complex and inexplicable caring for each other, and for our life together here. This is given. It is not learned.”

On a last note, here’s my favorite Halloween custom:
The purpose of the jack-o’lantern originally, was to carve a face, and walk the boundary of your property on All Soul’s Eve, in order to purify it and re-establish the intentions of your relationship with the land. I’ve done this over the years on various properties I’ve lived on, and always love it! I’ve offered this custom to a few friends and they have loved it too. If this appeals to you and if it’s appropriate to where you live, give it a try, it is a very bonding experience.


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